i feel really useless and worthless....signs and symptoms of depression. hahah! am i having depression? lols!

its kindda sick sometimes when people pretend to be helpful and when u really need help they dont help you but instead just leave u to die...thats just sick. and when they already been doing the thing for such a long time, they expect the newbies to be in the same level as they are. aint that crazy? its too irritating sometimes that i cant stand it. i feel like i should just quit working with these kind of people. i think i will. once i reach the end of the year..january i will go find another job. its just ridiculous how some people expects you to be at a par as they are and when you didnt meet to that freaking expectation, you are looked down on. as if you are not worthy of doing it. as if you are not cut out to do it at all. its better of that you dont do it. its just way to sick for me to even comprehend and tolerate it. i really wonder if they really get happiness from all that and how do they even sleep after doing something like that to other people and feel good about it. seriously, omg....

and to add to that, i have to face this kind of thing at work and also at home....ridiculous!!! this makes me think of how grateful i am to have certain people in my life that i can get comfy and also get emotional with. thank you god for making these people that i can always count on. right, back to work....

i feel really useless and worthless....signs and symptoms of depression. hahah! am i having depression? lols!

its kindda sick sometimes when people pretend to be helpful and when u really need help they dont help you but instead just leave u to die...thats just sick. and when they already been doing the thing for such a long time, they expect the newbies to be in the same level as they are. aint that crazy? its too irritating sometimes that i cant stand it. i feel like i should just quit working with these kind of people. i think i will. once i reach the end of the year..january i will go find another job. its just ridiculous how some people expects you to be at a par as they are and when you didnt meet to that freaking expectation, you are looked down on. as if you are not worthy of doing it. as if you are not cut out to do it at all. its better of that you dont do it. its just way to sick for me to even comprehend and tolerate it. i really wonder if they really get happiness from all that and how do they even sleep after doing something like that to other people and feel good about it. seriously, omg....

and to add to that, i have to face this kind of thing at work and also at home....ridiculous!!! this makes me think of how grateful i am to have certain people in my life that i can get comfy and also get emotional with. thank you god for making these people that i can always count on. right, back to work....